Handsome Devil.

I would have put another (t) at the end of hot, but baby you don’t even deserve 2 t’s. Know that I think about it I don’t think that you even deserve the word hot…your just a mess.

Can someone please explain to me why someone acts a certain way just to draw the eye, but in reality he/she is a couple fries short of a happy meal…

I came to this realization when I began seeing a side that was far from the truth. A side that is so jacked, it makes Kat Stakes weaves look good…

Now I haven’t really said anything to he/she because I’m trying to conjure up the right words so that it doesn’t come off as me being a bitch. Which I must say, I have been having trouble trying to find the words.

Some people say that it’s jealousy…really now? Like are you serious? I have nothing to be jealous about. I live my life the way I want to. It just pisses me off when someone is acting so desperately for attention, or as my girl Julian calls it “playing desperate destiny” that not only me but he/she loses sight of who he is or is trying to be. Because your seeking unnecessary attention.

Another thing that bothers me is the fact that he/she is “living” this lifestyle like they’ve been living it for years…honey you’ve been in the scene for like 2 seconds, stop. Your not this amazing person that goes out every weekend and “thinks” your living the celebrity life when your nowhere even close.

My thing/motto is “If your gonna do it then do it-don’t half ass it” It’s like saying “If your going to carry a Birkin then carry it-don’t treat it like a Walmart buy.” Be you 100% of the time or none of it at all. You need to choose which side your on.

If your reading this and you find that it is YOU whom I’m speaking about then be warned, because our next meeting won’t be so pleasant. Then again if your reading this and you find that this may be you, then take a deep breath and munster up the courage to go and talk to someone about what your hiding inside, because it won’t take long before it spills all over your white carpet, and those stains are the worst to get out.

Until next time - be you and no one else, as RuPaul always says “If you can’t love yourself, then how tha hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an AMEN in here?”

Sincerely,

TayAllyn

P.S. - I have read all the emails, and I will be commenting on them soon!

Okay so this may be a little bit out there and some people may get offended but I’ve never been one to be anything less than blunt, so I’m telling you know-you can turn away!

Alright, so a couple of days ago I got this grinder account because one of my friends told me to get one “he already has one” so I get one, and it’s pretty interesting to say the least. Anywho so I start exploring, and my friend finds me and starts chatting me up. Now what was weird about our conversation online that was different from other convos was that he was extremely sexual, like completely different from one on one convos. So he just comes out and says “I wanna breed you asap” and I’m like ummm okay??? I thought he was kidding until he was like “I want 10-15 other guys breeding you also at the same time…then it hit me…he’s being 100% serious. So I go ” you wanna gang bang me?” and he’s like yeah is that a problem? And for those of you who don’t know what breeding is it’s barebacking. So I was like ummm no but why are you asking me on here? I guess he thought that it was more discrete being on the site or whatever, it just made things like really awkward. But anywho I’ll leave it to your imagination for you think what’s gonna happen.

So I’m somewhat on a shopping freeze just because I think I shop too much…although I did buy a couple of things today, which I guess means I’m not fully commited but it is a process. When your used to buying everything you see, you tend to become accustomed…and trying to be different is a struggle. I want to be able to control my money and not have it flying out my Louis Vuitton wallet all the time. My name is TayAllyn and I am a shopaholic.

So I’ve been thinking about starting my own photography business, because believe it or not, I have a following. With that being said I believe that the next step is to open a business and charge a reasonable amount for my services. Now I’m super excited because I already have been asked to do an event for Bebe in Dallas next week which I’m stoked for! Plus I have a photo shoot on Friday for my friend {she’s expanding her portfolio as will I}.

Things seem to be moving in the right direction, this has truly been a beautiful mistake. Never in a million years did I think that not having all the skills possessed with being a photographer, would I be in such a beautiful place where people could take my work seriously. The only problem is getting the rents to see that this is a career I want to lead with. I will do me no matter what. But it would be great for them to see what I see.

I am still in the process of designing my business cards, I’m soooo excited! And hopefully in the near future I will have my own showroom. With the demand so high, set by the people that surround me, I hope that I meet the requirements that they have set for me, because I know they don’t want to see me fail. I don’t want to see myself fail. I will be a leading Fashion Photographer. My name will be remembered. This is so much more than a hobby, this is so much more than a job, it is my career. I believe that, my work and my eye will set me apart from everyone else. My creativity will shine through in ever piece that I do, and exceed anybody’s expectations.

Step aside - out with the old and in with the new.

TayAllyn has arrived and I won’t be going anywhere anytime soon.

Better watch for me!

Sincerely,

TayAllyn

P.S. For those that live close to me, I am available to shoot! So please email me or just hit me up on my cell!

Okay so I’ve given it much thought and I have come to the conclusion that I deserve my own reality show. Why? Because my name is TayAllyn that’s why! No in all seriousness, I would like to have my own show because I believe my life is somewhat interesting with all that I have going on, I think would keep you on the edge of your seat. I’ve come up with a name “TayAllyn - Taking Control” it came to me on the basis of me and only me having control of my life. Because I’ve let so many other people control me - painting my canvas, that it’s like I don’t know who I am anymore. The journey of my show will be me finding who I really am, and where I want to be in the future. Cause baby I’m thrown in all different directions, I don’t know which one is right. A lot has happened in the 20 years that I’ve been walking this earth, some good and a lot bad, that I need to break away from all that’s been holding me back. Meaning some of you people has gotta go. But mostly my family struggles are gonna be the ones that hit hard, because my home life has been a struggle with who I am as a person, and what follows.

I would like to have my show on either:

• Logo
• Sundance
• E!
• vh1
• MTV
• Bravo

or maybe even showtime or HBO. I really don’t care which channel it’s on as long as I get a show. But it has to be a channel that everyone gets. Because whats the point in having a show if no one can watch it?

So the question is - Would you watch?

My show will show it all - the good the bad and the ever so ugly, but it’s what I learn in the situations is what shapes me into the person I will be in the future.

I guess I’m in my early stages of an “early-life crisis” I don’t know, but hopefully everything will work out in the end.

Sincerely,